Diary of a Step-Father

Diary of a Step-Father

Step up to be a father; or a father to be stepped on

Trying to figure it out;

You a man I’m a man

That’s your child I understand;

Yet here you stand; getting your life on track

Of the crack; that’s the plan

So

Why for you; I have so much hate and contempt

A this life you createdThen discarded

Now with me, her Step-Father, time is spent

Yet still I’m dumbfounded by your attempts

Now you want to be involved in a life you gave up

For crack cocaine it’s a damn shame

Now in my face shaking my hand saying “wassup man”

This dance I entertain; although you knows my distain

As we smile cheaply; oh how it’s he I despise

Although cordial and friendly to the naked eyes

Of those around us; it seems so

Like we’re friends; these two men

Now I have to commend you

On your ways; trying to mend; but I can’t pretend

Or try to hide the frustration in the end

Sitting here knowing my own child I never see

But child support still pursues me

For a child I help give birth

But never allowed to see this child I brought to this earth

Only because child support and visitation

Two separate things; in this great nation

LMAO

The bigger man I am; never to stand between

The rights of a father and my pride

But what does it do for my selfesteem

When on my back you step; the father you weren’t

Now you want to be a parent

Without earning the right

Cause drugs caused you to loose sight

Of the things I now hold dear

A fine line I must now walk

Between my daughter’s feelings

And my contempt for you and what I know

Keeping it straight in my heart and soul

With you and our talks; dealings; to show I’m in control

Even if you’re not with me; no bother

Because I’m what you couldn’t be and Stepped up to be a Father

For the life you’re trying to claim

Your child ain’t the same; changed

With knowledge from me gained

From a spiritual plain

The love of my life this Step-Father has attained.