I Love You Not...

I love you not…
Because your hearts’ so true but because you’re my sunset I will love you not because of what you do; I enamored by you because you’re my rising sun on a new day the second chance to a new way; of life. Melody in my heart; you the words to my music, loves’ ecstasy. What can I say it’s in the way you look at me; wondering what do you see.

Atop the mountain for miles I see, from this peak I speak my love for thee. It echos in the heavens like you do in my heart. Clouds give way to your rays of love feeding life to my soul making each day whole; it never ceases only increases my devotion to such notions like;

Walks on the beach hand in hand
Pillow fights in the sand
Breakfast in bed; desert where we stand
Trips unplanned to places so grand
But the biggest notion of all I dare to be your man

The feeling is mutual, I’m sure of that. Only because you’re sitting there reading this smiling right back. But I realize I’m not the one for you, oh…don’t think I didn’t get a clue. ‘Cause if I was, there’d be no hesitation. You and I both know it’s not about the situation, not location so you say; but the “money” to my dismay…can’t escape the innate desire in times of need only “money” inspires. Those liars of the heart; who want a life more than love, will never experience love more than life is what I was taught…so that’s why I love you not…

Thing called Satisfaction

It’s like that thing that happens after the fact
Not before; did we think before we act
Not before the fall; but, after all, what sense
Would that make; then there’d be no consequence
To this life spent acting without conscience

Twisted is the maze got me wanting to blaze
Up in smoke, my life dreams, emotional kindling
Setting me a fire, roasting my heart burning my soul
Dammit this shit takes a toll on my wallet taxin my mind
Putting in my two cents, although nothing but chump change
Left for me to spend, but the chump change is better than
No change; or stagnated with dogmatic approaches
Never pragmatic is the a dogma that coaches the masses
How long will this shit last I ask.

Silent mouths of a mime, pictionaries contrary to the mind
Drawn by life makes me weary of spoken words and silent actions
I'd prefer silent words with spoken actions that prevoke reactions
by invoking the power of attraction…still searching life for
Some, not a lot, just a little guaranteed satisfaction…

Dinner For Two

The anticipation is what drives me crazy, thoughts

Rolling around in my mind, you amaze me; caught

In the moment; between ready to order and pass the salt

Never expecting my soul to be blazing; no need to put it out

And extinguish what you started; yeah it’s your fault…lol

Eventually, indelibly this came to be, unbeknown to me

And her if I can presume as much; nah I’m trippin, need to shut up

Thinkin to far ahead even back then in my head, when

On the stairs I seen her, everything a blurr but,

Not her, crystal clear my view, there me and you; Dinner for two!

Homie, Lover, Friend

That’s what you are; no matter where you are
Whether near or far; you are…
Hell when you piss me off
You don’t realize you’re getting me off
With your state of mind when we fought
And laugh at how silly we are in our thoughts

When we relate in conversation isn’t it amazing
How we get it without the details of explaining
Over and over with metaphors or conjectures
We explore life together through dialogue and more
With laughter in between the cryin, sighin,
While tryin to make sense of this dense life
You and I defy the nonsense with our common sense
Hence those who know us hate us because they ain’t us
But trust they wish to be all they can’t be like we
Because what they can’t see within hating our silly grin
What it is to be Homie Lover Friends….

Daddy’s Lil Girl

Once cherished and held to such high esteem

My lil princess; embodied my life dreams

So I thought

I forget embodied she is; independent

The life I cherish; but I’m just a step-parent

Not biological, so its logical

Not my life dreams she embodies

But her own and now she’s grown

Acting like the think she knows

It’s shows in choices she makes in her life

following her desires; nolonger heeding advice

And now regrets are a mother%$#

Can’t take back what’s said; games over

You got what you wanted so you think

Now it seems you lost everything in a blink

Of a teary eyed man jdad it’s sad to imagine

All that’s left of his world is memories of Daddy’s Lil Girl…

Divine

Divine

Throughout this life of mine

there's beauty in everything I find

but then there's this image in my mind

that none can define, an essence so divine

your seduction, so subtle and sublime

not seen with the eye; felt in your presence as though I was blind

those with visual desires; they seek only to acquire for a time

but as for I; my blind eye; turned inner vision

Watching you stroll; in and out of my dreams causing such cataclysms

mentally emotionally; all I can do is drool; lost in a daze

deer in the headlight gaze at you; got me all crazed

my love; since then you know when;

till the time the world ends even then

beyond that my friend...till eternity's end...

You are so divine

by Jelaco

Staring At the Wall

STARING AT THE WALL

As I sit here motionless; staring at the wall

I’m moved by her moans, groans;

Tones, into a seductive state of emotions

As I escalate to a erect state; my mind can’t escape

The nightly dreams of a waking state…

All I can do is wait, anticipate what I fantasize

With her, damn man, it’s killing me; all I can do is anticipate

As I sit here, alone listening to the…

Silence solid like ice; transparent to the ear

cracked by the vocal passion; of her screams in tears

of joy and ecstasy as her climax draws near

all I can do is sit here

damn I wish it was me in there

but at the wall I sit stare

imagining what I would never dare…

to take the leap of faith; cause I hesitate just in case

not the right time or the place to throw my hat into the race

for my pole position, in her place

given the situation; damn the complication

of wanting, desiring, yearning to be the one

second to none, but still coming up third

phuk it’s absurd, for my feeling s to be curbed

I must be out of my head; or mind while stuck

On stupid like chuck; what the phuk…I’m trippin

Wishin it was me instead of him mixing emotions

With flesh…maybe it’s destiny I guess

To be a friend at best…lmao…what a mess

Maybe I should give up on it all, cause

I’m lost to it all; sitting here staring at the wall...